Tuesday, October 16, 2007

dang it. now i have to write

Paul blogged so now apparently i have to write something. but i really have no idea what to write about.
I hit a point of insane stress last night. i worked from 4 til 10 and then i had to finish a lab for physics, do math homework, worry about a INSANELY massive project for english, study for a math test that lately i've been failing all the quizzes which is scary because i've definately never failed before and i REALLY don't want to fail! I stayed up until 1 doing all of this stupid homework stuff and then i had to get up at 6 to get ready for choir and get some more studying in. (Praise God i feel fine today except for a massive headache.)
The point of this is not to make you guyes feel sorry for me but actually to hopefully encourage you. i was only half way through the chapter for studying math and i was really freaking out because i was too tired to keep my eyes open but i felt like i was getting pulled to read my bible right before i went to bed. So i was like, God, show me where. he took me to Jeremiah 32: 36-44. I just read the little title thinger and already i was like, wow, thank you God. the title thinger is "A Promise for Restoration." It was like God was straight up telling me, "Erin, I know exactly what your going through and i want you to know i'll be with you and i'll be there to give you peace and restoration." it was a small voice, but any words from God are totally amazing. i LOVE it when he whispers into my ears in a way i can't deny. I love his voice. I love his understanding and i love his promise. he's such an awesome God. i love that he always walks beside me.
God thank you for letting me know you're with me and your going to walk beside me even when i feel stressed or even when i feel like i've been neglecting you a little bit. If i ever do walk off my own way God, please draw me back to the path you've chosen adn knock at my heart if it ever seems i'm not listening. thank you for you goodness. thank you for your faithfulness.
I love you God. you are soooo good to me.

1 comment:

Kristen said...

I think one of the hardest things in life is recognizing when too much is too much. I remember one of my mentors telling me a few years ago that she always wanted to more (a quality she saw in me). She always wanted to get on board with good things, but God didn't actually want her doing everything. Regardless she kept carrying on with youth, children's worship, adult bible study, organizing the CnC and a myriad of other activities. She said that while God hadn't wanted her doing everything He also didn't abandon her as she did it.

While ministry is good, God wants our focus to be Him--not necessarily His service only. Do you remember the story of Mary and Martha? Martha spent her time making preparations while Mary basked in Jesus's glory. . . and who found favour? That's not to say ministry is bad, but it becomes irrelevant if we don't let Him dominate our time and lives.

Much love. ;)