I wish i could express
I wish even that i could know,
that i could have some understanding
I'm tired of the questions
questions drag on me
they rake their fingers in my back
they heave whatever weight they have to my back
They cling to whatever part of my mind they can grasp
they snarl like little demons if anyone tries to remove them
i know, i've tried to shake them myself
they cling to my heart, blocking any other thing from entering
I can't ignore
I wish i could
but questions come rushing in
whether feeling or thought
the questions come like rivers, drowning out other voices
i can't wait forever.
i've been patient
but i can't wait forever
acknowledge my questions, my doubt, my struggle
come rescue me
i dont want to leave you.
this faith thing is harder than i thought
i still love you.
don't let me slip away
don't let me slip through your fingers.
draw me back into your arms.
erase the questions, doubts, fear, restlessness.
pull me back in your arms